A Lost Mind

A Lost Mind is a raw and deeply personal memoir about psychosis, incarceration, accountability, and recovery.

Sakariya Hirad shares what it felt like to lose touch with reality, fall into distorted thinking, and live through consequences that changed the course of his life. Through honest reflection, he explores heavy cannabis use, sleep deprivation, paranoia, mental decline, isolation, jail, a forensic psychiatric facility, guilt, regret, shame, and the difficult process of rebuilding from the inside out.

This is not a story told from the perspective of someone who had everything figured out. It is the story of a person who made serious mistakes, faced life-changing consequences, and was forced to confront the person he had become.

A Lost Mind examines how pain, environment, destructive thinking, substance abuse, fear, and poor decisions can collide in dangerous ways. At the same time, it explores what can happen when a person chooses to face the truth, accept responsibility, learn from the past, and work toward becoming better.

Through his experiences, Sakariya reflects on mental health, faith, violence, self-awareness, human connection, personal responsibility, and the importance of recognizing warning signs before life reaches a breaking point.

At its core, A Lost Mind is about losing yourself, confronting the damage, and fighting to rebuild your life with greater clarity, humility, and purpose.

It is a story of psychosis, incarceration, recovery, accountability, humanity, and the possibility of change.